26 November 2010

Behind the clouds

I didn't want to do a quick post but I guess I will have to anyway if I want to do any post at all :(

I feel like this blog is slowly turning into a cancer blog but there seems to be a lot of that in my world right now so here we go again...

Okay, first the good news that I was so excited about. Well it may not seem that great a deal to be honest but it means an awesome lot to me. I took my radioactive iodine therapy on the 16th of this month. Dreary isolation room for 32 hours and 5 days later, I had my final full body iodine scan on the 23rd, and the doctor finally declared me all good. Hooray!

I was really excited because it was so scary waiting for the result to come worrying about 'What ifs?' - What if the therapy doesn't work? What if they find that the cancerous cells had actually spread beyond the thyroid region, beyond the help of the radioactive iodine? Just the thought of entering the isolation chamber again dragged me down to depression hell, I dreaded it so much. That's why when the doc tells you all's good, your spirit leaps and stays on the air for quite a while because you can finally let go of so many of those 'what ifs' :)

And you know what this means - my thyroid ordeal is over. At least until the next check up scan 6 months later. And I am finally on my thyroid replacement meds which again may not sound like a whole lot but when you've been through days of extreme lethargy and general tiredness and you feel like a freaking zombie because your body is swollen like shit and nothing you do helps and it's a struggle to stay awake all day, it's the best thing in the world to know that finally, these medications are here and they are going to help you and you don't have to put up with that crap anymore :)

I still have some minor melanoma related tests and ultrasounds that I have to go through in the next few weeks, but whew! So much more easier to be dealing with one cancer than two. (Actually, make that dealing with two cancers instead of three..and that's another long story that will take up an entire post.)

Anyway, I'm very happy. It's like a huge chunk of weight has been lifted off my shoulders, and I just want to announce to the world that I am rejoicing :D

And oh, I also feel compelled to mention that work sucks. More than it's ever sucked in 5 years. Of course, it's probably got to do with me being out of touch with everything what with me being out of office so much but still...

Anyway for this reason and the other two cancers that I'm still dealing with, it is very important to take what little reason one has to rejoice and blow it out of proportion and celebrate in grand style :) For example, we went out for a really nice dinner on account of my mom's surgical drain being removed yesterday haha

If you're reading this, you should go out wearing your best dress and shoes and celebrate something. Maybe the fact that you and your loved ones are healthy and alive should be a good enough reason to start with.

17 comments:

virgochhas said...

Praise the Lord....Congratulations once more...God is good....

the fact that you and your loved ones are healthy and alive should be a good enough reason to start with. ...i agree...ka tawngtai hian first ah hriselna min pek bakah nunna min zuah sak avang hian lawmthu ka sawi thrin...nitin mi tam tak in natna an neih an hmuchhuak a, hmangaih te kan sun lai a, dam leh hrisel taka kan awm bik hi a lawmawm ngawih ngawih...

lo dam zel ru

Mama said...

I huaisenna leh i thlir thlir dan hi a ropui e. 'Khangaihna- Min thlah lotu' tih mi lehkhabu chhuah tur ka edit zo chiah a. A ziaktu nen hian in thil thlir dan a inang hle mai. Cancer vei ve lovin a vei hnena hnemna thu emaw tih dan tur leh tih loh tur sawi emaw hi inhnemna a tlin ka ring si lo va. Beiseina i neih thar zel theihna tur chu mite hnemna aiin Lalpa nen ininpawlna a nih ka ring.

Huaisen takin dam zel teh

Nadu said...

I love your spirit! I'll have some celebratory wine for you :)

Nags said...

couldn't agree more!! proud of you Jerusha :)

Almost Unreal said...

whew...thats a wonderful news.....a awmpui tunu che khan ka vil hneh bok em che a ni :D

sailopari said...

Hei ka rawn lenglut ve e..ka tihtheih tawk-Pathian hnenah lawmthu ka lo sawi ve e..oi titi ka chak ltk.. I cancer vang hian keipn thil k hmucuak teuh mai..sailopari

caribou said...

Ka lawmpui khawp mai che. Zawi zawia hma sawn hret hret zelin, a ni tela lo dam zel turin ka duhsakna ka hlan a che.

diary said...

Congratulations. The fact that you're still working amazes me. you're definitely going to conquer this.

DayDreamBeliever said...

Jerusha my dear, I was out of the blog world for nearly a year, which is why I missed all your updates. Am profoundly shocked by your illness, and yet so proud of your strength and positive attitude.But then, we would have expected nothing less from our dear Jerusha! I'm also really glad to hear that tests have come out with good results. Your faith in God is also something that makes you so fortunate, more than many others. I did attempt to listen to the song, but my slow internet connection prevents me from doing so.

You're absolutely right to say that we must celebrate whatever we have, the here and the now. You have given me so much to think about, and for that, I am grateful. Will be praying for you. Stay strong.

Maisek said...

Glad to hear of your good results. Will continue praying for you!

mesjay said...

Good news, hope we get more of them. Cheers!

claytonia vices said...

Read your blog after a long time! :)

Why don't they make that isolation ward a little more fun to be in?

Anyways, time to celebrate your victory! :)

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Nicholas DiRoma said...

I will continue to pray for you. Stay strong

Alice said...

Dear Jerusha,
You have a wonderful spirit and amazing outlook. Your blog has inspired me and I am grateful for all the gifts in my life.

God bless!

Alice

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