25 July 2008

The sad squid notes

So funny, I just walked in and this one colleague of mine looked at my arm and exclaimed 'Oh, you got a new tattoo!' (Little black flowers and leaves and what-not scribbled down all over my left arm).

Now how do I tell her "No, this is just the result of a very unproductive hour-long meeting." Maybe I can say "Yeah, I got it done by this black guy called Reynolds in one of the meeting rooms."

I don't know what we discussed in there, I don't have little notes, no important points to carry away. Just this pretty graffiti on my arm.

I may have been a squid in my previous life, I rock ink so well! :-)

p.s - How do you like my Deezer track? The song is in dedication to Kal-El, my loving, unattainable hero, who finally left for his home planet Krypton today.

You know one of these days, I think I will take the much-frowned-upon path of mushiness and utter corniness and write about what it feels like to hold and kiss someone when you both know that that's the last time you'll ever get to kiss each other, and all that's on both your minds is how you will never see each other again after this, and there's nothing you can do about it.

Say my name
So I will know
You're back you're here again
For a while....

**sigh**

There's this song called 'Dreidel' by someone I don't remember, Don McLean I think...that's all I've been thinking of today -

I feel like a spinning top or a dreidel
The spinning don't stop when you leave the cradle
You just slow down
Round and around the world you go
Spinning through the lives of the people you know
We all slow down
How you gonna keep on turning from day to day?
How you gonna keep from turning your life away?

Heh! Looks like I'm already treading on the afore-mentioned mushy path. Muchos sorry. But then, this is not even really mush because it's not so much about romantic feelings, but more about the normal sadness any human being of any gender feels at the absence of another human being of any gender. Simply because that human being was very special to them.

5 comments:

Joseph said...

post poh ka chhiar hman hrih lo..

father_sphinx@yahoo.com a ni e

claytonia vices said...

so true, girl...

Calliopia said...

"...the normal sadness any human being of any gender feels at the absence of another human being of any gender. Simply because that human being was very special to them."

Hmmmm very ambiguous. But I think I can relate to that. Or can I? Hmmmm...

Jerusha said...

father - thanks muchos! Mailed ya..

clay - I have so much wisdom don't I? :PP

J - I tend to get that way (ambiguous), and the sad part is I hate and try to avoid ambiguity as much as possible, but I think lots of times I get caught up in my attempts to make myself clear and be guilty of the very thing I try to avoid :(

Anyway - what I was trying to say was how I seem to miss his "presence" more than anything else, So when I miss him, it's never too much about those "boyfriend-missing-y" feelings LOL. I miss our closeness as human beings more than whatever male-female closeness we had.

Maybe you can relate to that now.. :)

Jerusha said...

or maybe not :( (Just read my comment again and saw I didn't make anything better LOL)