25 February 2011

This swell life



Booo!
This is how my feet looks right now, my classic swollen feet look. (I know you don't really want to look at my feet but I feel vicious tonight). Don't judge my poor feet too harshly though, there was a time I used to have nice feet. And these very feet, believe it or not, used to be gazed on with much love and adoration. But post thyroid surgery, bad hair days have taken a step back to bad feet days. Did I ever mention that when I was a baby, a maid spilled boiling water on my right feet? You can still see the scars. And now, that coupled with the bombasticity leaves me with very little to be proud of.

I'm home alone on a Friday night. Isn't that just tragic? My boredom these days is getting so unmanageable I'm starting to prefer being bored on my own. It's more tolerable than being bored in the company of others. At least I don't have to keep up pretenses. Here on my own I can paint my nails all the colors of the rainbow in one night.

Skipped out of work early, canceled dinner plans with a lie for an excuse. Tried to buy a pair of pretty red suede shoes to cheer myself up (thank God I still fit into a size 36!), but the stupid credit card machine wasn't working and I barely had enough cash to pay for my rickshaw fare back home. I went home fuming, accusing the whole universe of conspiring against me.

And I've been weeping like a fool because I watched Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless mind and I felt so sad because I missed my unswollen feet and I'm so much in love and I don't have anyone or anything I want erased from my mind ever. Ever ever.

And I feel threatened. That this 'force' - something beyond anyone's control is trying to erase everything I know. Trying to erase me.

But I'm still here, my memory is still intact. And as for ugly appendages...they're not the end of the world.

And to compensate for the gross feet picture above, here's another one. Nicer to look at with pretty green trees and because I really miss this day.
One of these days, I will do something like this for a living. Hang around trees all day. With unswollen feet.

18 comments:

Lucy In The Sky said...

I dig your nail polish color. My feet look like ginger and they swell everyday :) Love the second photo. Makes me want to get out of Bangalore and go someplace serene. Hnimhnah rim min ti ngai bawk. Mizoramah ram hnuaia kal a, hnimhnah rim rawn nam veng veng thrin hi i hria em? Ka ngai!

Jerusha said...

Why do they swell? You shouldn't ignore it. I ignored the swellings for about a year, and all that time it was cancer :) Who'd guess? But I think every minor anomaly you should check it out.

Chuan nia ni an sa deuh a, ni sa hnuai a hnim hnah rim rawn nam tluk a lung ti leng hi awm lo, ka rim ngainat ber pawl.

caribou said...

Ke hi mihring taksa peng ah chuan a hah ber a, a thawkrim ber a, rit a chawi nasa ber a, rit em em phurin phunnawi miah lovin hmun hrang hrang ah a kal thin. A tangaki ang huin ngaihsak leh duat a hlawh lo em em lawi si. Zeng, kea kal thei lo te, kebul te, kebai te, ka hmuh chang hian ka ke hlutzia leh ka vanneih bik zia ka hre chhuak thin. Ke hi a mawi leh mawi loh lampang pawh a ni ber lo, a nat lohva, kan kal duhna lama kan kal theih chuan a hlu ka ti thin.

Sorry for Off-topic. Ka duh dan danin ka rawn pawt kual vel ve ngawt anih hi.

Jerusha said...

Caribou - Ke hi chu a tangkai ani tiraw. An vung luk reng mai hi chuan a ninawm hma khawp mai. Mahse I sawi dik chiah, keipawh hi ka phun hma lutuk thin. I sawi ang chiah khian, a nat loh te, duh ang thlapa a hman theih hrim hrim hi lawmawm.

blackestred said...

Just as the universe never comes together to make everything fall into place to make a wish come true, it never conspires to bring bad luck against anyone or anything.. It's purely a matter of perspective, depends solely from where you view these events unfold..
And sometimes, being alone is less boring than being in a party full of people.. except if there's free beer! :P

Alejendro said...

Lo leng daih lo a nih chu... :-D

MRalte said...

Thil reng reng hi engvang nge? Engati nge? Eng nge? etc. etc. kan tih lohva a root kan hriat loh chuan.... Ni e.. your swollen feet brings my tears, cos' I know why. Your courageous and struggle will win the battle. Aja aja fighting!!!

Jerusha said...

Blakest - haha free beer solves almost everything for men :) And yeah the universe doesn't conspire but sometimes your mind does. To make you think that the universe is conspiring. Lucky it's only sometimes.

Alej - Nia

M - haha aja aja fighting tih hi ka hre nasa tawp ka dam loh achin. Tunlai chu football ka khel thin a ka ke vung pawh reh tawp

ku2 said...

"I'm so much in love and I don't have anyone or anything I want erased from my mind ever. Ever ever."
I so get you :D
My feet swells too when its hot, and after reading your reply to Lucy's comment, Im feeling a little scared, but I have doctorphobia so Im brooding here in my room and staring at my feet and finally deciding to paint my nails a bright fuchsia.

luliana said...

I dam tha zel a a lawmawm e! Tunlai chu a ke nilovin ka dul hi a "swell" zual riau a..hihi

The Piper said...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ICaTsTkBPV8



erase me !! :)

MRalte said...

kei poh luliana iangin ka dul a kiar tlats. kor poh dulkiar proof a ngai. Aja fighting hi engtihna tak niang maw? If u dont success at first try try again tiin ka let top mai

DayDreamBeliever said...

Sweetie, your feet look cute, don't worry. And at least you have an excuse. My feet, on the other hand, have NEVER looked pretty. No amount of pampering and pedicuring helps. I also totally agree that sometimes it's better to be bored alone, than be bored with others :)

Stay strong!

Anonymous said...

swell feet or not ask Jeru anytime 'how's life?' She'd always answer with a big smile "Life is Swell...
(Sando)

Jerusha said...

ku - haha don't worry about the general swelling. I think it's quite normal. Won't it be great if we could just erase swollen feet from our lives?

Lulian - keipawh ka ke hi kan focus deuh viau na a chutia I sawi takah chuan dul lam te pawh hi swell viauin ka hria lol

Jerusha said...

Piper - :) Kanye is the man. I wouldn't mind erasing him though

M - dulkiar proof kawr hak hi ka ching a ka duh tawh lo, kan fimkhur loh phahin ka hria. Kawr tight deuh deuh hi ha ila, kan dul kiarh zia kan hmu reng a fimkhur a awl

Jerusha said...

Daydream - Thanks. I'm sure youur feet's pretty, you just need it to become ugly for you to realise how pretty it was all along :P I never thought my feet was pretty but the unsightly swelling makes me think that my feet pre-swelling was actually presentable.

Sando - haha poetry lamah I lo va sang hle mai.

Miss Superman said...

At least you have nice toe nails :)